淡淡的[你]

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（难熬）

不应该发生的事终于发生了
这一次也是亲眼目睹而没有当事人[你]的交代。。

对，或许[你]不必向我交代你的私人生活
但分担分享不是[你]一直以来的作风吗？
可能彼此地友谊并非我想像的那样坚固

他想告诉你 他会跟你说

他不想告诉你 你也不必去问 

因为当他有一天想告诉你时 他会和你分担分享

当我有一股冲动想得到[你]那我早已猜透的答案
我记得那番话。。 。。
当我有一股愤怒想爆发
我忆起那句子。。 。。

[你]比从前快乐；我明白

我也从此明白，再坚固的友谊也始终会随着岁月淡去。

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Ill-ing

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RECOVER SOON, J

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Prayer

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7 hours of lesson for today
Truly gained some exam technique from Dr. Amy

* She's really putting effort in preparing to focus for some potential exam question

Exhausted started my day from 6 morning until present.. Intend to lying on bed quickly but I need a corner to stress release..

During the break time for the lesson today, my classmates were planning for a so called 1 day trip. Sounds like 1 day trip as it included morning activities as well as for night. I'm actually excited for it and going to take this chance to get closer relationship from each others.

Sigh. the place they planning for is at BOTANICAL GARDEN where my deep deep scars created since the accident. Seriously, I have phobia of it.. My sister obviously refused I attend for.. But there is just an answer..

YES

PS: Just prayer and be careful along the way ; Take Care Jess 

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Dating from day to nights

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CYIN ; YS ; JESS ; SW

JESS with JOAN

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At first I'm here to wish happy 21st birthday to SUE WEI 831 and JOAN 926
Good to see you girls again and I'm really appreciate especially of ours' group photo, its really beautiful and meaningful since we didn't gather since 4 months ago..

I felt sorry that I did not exactly fully enjoy during ours' dating time.. That is just much of annoying matters came to my mind.. Urgh.. Hope all of you not sense at all which distract yours mood..
AND of course about the driver (JESS).. Admit I'm more used to drive alone through highway route.. Should improve my driving skills more and more !! Sorry girls if get frighten  =(


Conclusion: Its still a HAPPY DAY! From day until night!
Thanks for brighten up my day! <3

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假期快乐，爵

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现在暂时可以放慢脚步。。　。。
除了能有时间作其它未完成的事以外
当然还有少不了的休息
一切还是一样


显然已经预测没有那种无与伦比的兴奋
对不起　
我已尽全力了
还是无法顺利地完成作答
而且还选择了大家公认很难的考题
心里已经有了盘算
半工半读？？
至少能缴费自己修读的课程？？


你们还对我说学费不会很昂贵　＝（


你们没给我施加任何压力
虽然鼓励会偶尔有点让我有种只需成功的念头。。
因为你们的鼓励
我想是对我的期望吧？？
对不起。。


看见同学一个一个的重修
不仅是替他们感到惋惜
还有信心下滑了许多。。


这课程只有正负两面
没有所谓的中立场
看似就快到达终点
不过眼前都充满了坎坷的路程


明天会更好
已不在属于J的座右铭
每个明天都在累积新的挑战


乐观的想
１２月还有个希望
祈求愿望都能实现来弥补一切

PS:　泰国之旅万岁！

ONLY lonely

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眺望窗外的灯一盏一盏的熄灭 ； 车子一辆一辆的接送
突然感受到极度空虚；寂寞
唯有靠微弱的歌曲来陪伴
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[ 希望赶快打消回家的念头 ]


P/S： 拭干** ； 继续迈进
(好想你。。主动力）
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D.I.A.R.Y

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Dear Blog,


Started on this week, all courses available in college will begun the final exam. Except my ones, AFA. Its getting quiet all around the corridor even hostel. I saw those who always playing active and talkative role is now putting effort for their revision. I guess it is a good chance for me to prepare for final as well.

Blog, I need some space to offload my problems although no solution nor feedback from you. You are the good choice where everyone is not in free. Thanks =)

Btw I hate Mr. Ill. Comes to me during this climax. Sigh. Wish can get apart from me soon as I have an important presentation on the coming friday. =(

Mr. Sunny ! Need you keep myself warm to defend illness.



" As a CHALLENGE for me ?? "

No matter how, try my BEST !!!
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暂且抛开烦恼 · 日子

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:: 星期三 ::
所有课业上的工作终于暂时告一段落
现在只想好好疗养回那 "遍体鳞伤" 的身子
虽然距离考试已有一阵子
可是总找不回精神奕奕的体魄。

牙肉又不时在抽痛了
一天一天地严重
真希望它能快一些远离自己
好让J能好好地渡过这休假。



“ 假期快乐，爵 ” =)

幸运儿的渴望

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考试终于告一段落了
J 只能说好不容易。。 。。

犹记得那天傍晚 [ 星期五 ]
第二战场的结束
那一刻的心情无法言语
再多的安慰也于事无补。。 。。
在回宿舍的路途中，
那不停在心里流的液体
仿佛快无法窒息。。 。。

由于还要面临第三次的战场
也只好让 "一切" 终止

当时真的好想紧紧拥着你们让那液体流个痛快... ...
时间的不允许
狠狠地不让它实现

撑到这阶段
不知道算不算是个幸运儿
我想 J 知道不能再有放弃的念头了

我 · 也还有你们不断地在为我加油打气
只希望不会因为结果而崩溃
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P/S 加油爵！
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I Can Do It

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Firstly,
An apologize again to Peter to picked up my impolite call just now.
You are the unlucky ones and grateful from your forgiveness and words - " relax a BIG "
Im just because of ALLs come in once that I couldn’t stand for.

This coming Saturday has a date with them. It is a precious chance since started school and I know it will be overjoyed on that day. I’m really really hoping I can gain much of happiness to cover all the past.

Learning to looking forward and the only way to recover is to treat myself better.

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P/S: DINNER TIME! =D

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Help·less

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A sense of helpless-ness

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Challenge-ING

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Eventually, medical report was out.. ..
Getting through my personal health profile, there was something been highlighted.

So, tomorrow mostly will take the 1st injection at clinic which nearby my house if " good in health ". Hahaha, hope so. =) In addition, my mum also hoping can get more understanding on my body condition. Really appreciate of her.. .. and apologize for last night I arrived home lately.
" Sorry been waited for so long "

1st study week was past, my buddy told me that it is a good started. Umm, for me everything is still fine but I know W.A.R is coming soon. I'm trying to be ready. Nothing could be stop here, just praying and keep praying.

Fortunately when begun the week just past, J received much of touches from them. A lot of warm encouragement and support to cheers me up. 1 of the following :-
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Surprisingly of Breakfast from a girl
when I was sleeping
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She told me that " Start the morning with happy food "
Thanks!
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The most disappointed I felt for this week.. ..
I'm just wondering why some of people will have different behaviour, treat nice at 1st and hurting just in another second. They wont get permission or consent from you when take action.
Sigh. I know it should not be an upset ending for this post. But anyway, at least now I'm pleasure-ing at my puchong's house.
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P/S: Stay healthy, Keep it up, FIGHT!
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盼望 · 不

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怎么了
苦涩突然又贸贸然地出现
原以为一切以顺其自然
正能量地去体会
实在困难.. ..
所以
不能 · 不能一个人渡过

好想出外
到外感受多人的氛围
不再让有机会容纳其它空间
只想抛到脑后
不再 · 不再一个人**

因为
每当一开始
无论身在何处；或有人在身边
都会情不自禁；无法自拔地**
不想 · 不想再涌起点滴

倒数7日
每分每秒开开心心的去珍惜
-[还是]-
安分守己的做好手头上的工作
平平淡淡地不再制造记忆

J无法决定
顺其自然也许能帮得上忙
不去了解不用思考
不要 · 不要踏入懊恼禁区

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好吧
就这样
一切顺心就好

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H@ppy from Weird

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Tonight feeling weird ; Not much things happen today but moody @.@
Considering sit in front PC to search for entertainment OR go to bed
but anyway
I think will find a way to reduce it before going to bed
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TOMORROW WILL BE BETTER
stay_happy Jess =)
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D.O.W.N

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Not even more than 5 months.. .. ..
I thought I wont so care of it.. .. ..

Who should I blame??
Is it really because of that night??
It will happen again??




::I HATE YOU::
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DOUBLE good to you

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You're leaving...Sad to see you go...You'll surely be missed...
But happy for the exciting changes that lie ahead for you
GOODBYE & GOODLUCK
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迎接夜晚的来临...

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将近夜晚时分

今天已来到星期五了；但现在的我仍呆在《第二个家》

应该是昨晚没睡好的关系

所以一整天都昏昏沉沉的

服了药

* 真希望能快点好起来

乾姐也一样，喉咙开始有点不舒服

* 赶快好起来啦，吃多点喉糖

我们可说是同病相怜了 @.@

想一想

近几个星期回老家的次数越来越少了

唉.. .. ..

不好意思噢（家人），

过了这几个礼拜；空闲一点

一定会尽快返回家

陪伴你们

昨天呢

早晨就碰上钉子了

虽然脑海里重复浮现零零碎碎的答案

最终还是没勇气说出来

这也算是预料之事

也安然接受了

感激乾姐的安慰鼓励

我们一直都在同甘共苦

今天呢

也是凯欣的生日天

第1次的心意

第1次的祝福

再次说声 ：‘’生日快乐哦‘’

希望相差两年的我和你

友情能慢慢升温

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走下去

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刚办完学历报告，还有帮爸爸作些稿子
很自然地 "多手" 浏览了大姐的生日照
能感受到她的灿烂笑容是多么地愉快
好多朋友和室友帮她庆生
(... ...)
如果J能像她一样就好了
永远都处于 [闻名形态]
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“时间转眼真快”
一句时常挂在嘴边的六个字
最近发觉
时间是能冲淡一切；也能冲淡人与人之间的感情
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第3星期
上了无数次的课
虽然科程不陌生
但J很清楚不再像往日一样
(今天刚回家就先透一口气 )
妈妈曾说过这是一个责任
* 我还记得
放弃 · 只是个不负责任的态度
所以J会一直一直持续.. .. ..
直到不能撑为止
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就只能这样了
（深呼吸）
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走下去

迎接

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美好的星期六即将向我告别了
也是该... ... ...
收拾行李；收拾心情 · 时候
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不长不短的假期
能说过得挺充实，愉快的
也有在这一段时间好好休息
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已经要开始迎接这一刻来临
当然要 ((([拉长补短])))
坏处不再去想了>> X
好处呢 >> 又能找回那早睡早起的生活方式
............>>.......继续节俭策划
............>>.......不再面对太多伤害眼睛的辐射
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在此告别
· family members
· [Precious babies]
· luxury & fortune cuisine
· hse study table_dining table
· shower heater
· [Just for laugh-gags]
· [Kimora-life in fab lane]
· [Yours hand in mine]
· newspaper
· [Burning flame]
· [In justice]
· bedroom
::GOODBYE EVERYTHINGs::
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今夜的你们显得好冷淡
国庆日原来以失落收尾
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